I don’t know, Dean, I just… I wanted to believe, so badly. It’s so damn hard to do this, what we do. All alone, you know? There’s so much evil out there in the world, Dean, I feel like I could drown in it. And when I think about my destiny, when I think about how I could end up… And I needed to think that there was something else watching too, you know? Some higher power. Some greater good. And that maybe… Maybe I could be saved.